I finally had to take control of the situation and I did. I told the other girl taht I couldn’t do this anymore. She was hurt and got a bit angry in defence, I wasn’t ready for that. The only way I could continue to see her is if I was no longer in this situation. Separated or single. It’s not to her and much as it hurts me.
So I had to cut her loose until I get myself staightened out. I know this means I will probably lose her, she will move on. It’s killing me, I miss her so much. When ever we are together we just melt into each other.
The fact that I was married was really hard for her and I realized that I was the only one really keeping things going by initiating everything. She understandablly wasn’t opening up and telling me how she felt, she was holding back. This caused me too much pain. I couldn’t continue like this, I needed more communication, but I understand why she couldn’t.
So, I will not contact her or go see her anymore. …..As for my marriage, sleeping on the couch for the past month is not working nor is the fact that my wife just isn’t giving me the physical or emotional affection that I need and I realize she never really has. At this point I don’t want it, but it made me realize maybe how SHE felt all along.
Now I just have to get over the heartache and deal with my marital situation. Sounds like fun huh?
Oh well, back to the drawing board. sigh!!
I am not going to blog about this anymore. I am just going to work on getting over the other girl for now. I have to be strong enough to not see her or talk to her as much as I want to. I know eventually it will pass. I wish she didn’t send me pictures of us together. That sucks. I can stop myself from looking at them. I guess I like punishment.
I’ve been wondering how you are. I figured you were off licking your wounds…
[sad face]
As horribly painful as it is, you’ve done the right thing. You’ve been sleeping on the couch? You have to sort that out. You know this.
Best of luck to you, my dear man…
I hope you don’t stop blogging…
Thanks, Van. I am usually quite a cheerful fellow. feeling like a dogs breakfast lately, trying to hold my head up, but It’s taking all my strenth. I am not going to dwell on it, just stop blogging in the heartache categorie. It’s not healthy
Not blogging all together.
P.S. Keep up the good work with your blogs. Good stuff! Lovin’ it.
Ah, you’re a sweetie. I’m glad you like them!
It’s a strange thing, this blogging business. Get a couple of hundred hits, but only 3 or 4 people leave a comment. It makes you wonder if you’re a bit crap, hehe…
Then, when I start thinking about that, I just say F**k it, and please myself
It’s a good distraction, is what it is
You’re right it’s a good distraction. Who wants to read my crap.
You will get passed these ruts eventually. It takes time, self-control and support, which that’s what your friends, and us, your fellow bloggers, are here for.
I agree with Vanessa…you did the right thing with the girlfriend. It’s better for you to be able to make the next decision you will have to make in your life and marriage. Whatever you decide, you can’t have the distraction of someone else.
always remember, we are all here for ya with unbias views of you.
Thnaks for the kind words. Feeling better already.
Cheers.
Hey man, sorry I havent checked in in a bit, been a little crazy here. I have to agree, you have made the right move here with the girlfriend. Now you can concentrate on the next thing. your marriage. Just don’t let the fear of being alone keep you in a relationship that is not healthy for either party. I did that for far too many years and regret it everyday now. Had I left that much sooner, I would be that much further in my road to recovery. Trust me that makes sense to me.
And it’s like AB said. We are always here for you, with an unbiased ear to listen. That is the best part of this whole little blog world we have going on. You can post what’s really on your mind and know that NONE of us are going to judge you for it. I have made many new friends and been encouraged by them since I started my blog. It has helped so much. AND YES WE ALL WANT TO READ YOUR CRAP! That’s what friends are for. Take care man, and again we are all here for you.
Hey Ranna,
I was wondering where you were. How’s it going eh?
Thanks for the comments. You know I really do feel better having made a decision a least now I can work on getting over her. But I had to cut all ties to do that, no “friends” thing. I could handle that.
And you’re right on with the next task….What do I want.
Hope all is well on your side on the screen. Enjoy the lovely weekend…..finally.
All you guys are so sweet. Right back at ya.
Cheers
I went kinda MIA for a bit. So much going on in Rannaland. BLAH BLAH BLAH! LOL! I will let you read my latest blog to get the details. But you are headed in the right direction. You can use this time to figure out what it is that you want, and what will make you happy. Your the one that has to live in your body, so you may as well make it a life worth enduring. Hope you have a great weekend! Here if you need anything.
you shouldn’t stop blogging just because things have ended. find something new to take ur mind off of it and blog about that. there’s got to be some hobby or interesting thing you want to talk about. that might help you shift your focus and work on yourself to be a better person. just an idea…
Your right K. I’m just not the kind of person who likes to dwell on things or feel sorry for myself. So I don’t want to blog about this anymore under this categorie. I will start to blog about something else your right. Thx.